Writtensouls

I loathe watching those that I love fall apart before me watching them deteriorate from health problems that they cannot stop chronic problems that follow them into the future how do you help those that you love against such helpless befallings I loathe watching my wife slowly going blind from a genetic condition one that I am powerless to control knowing that the future holds more pain and more sorrows ahead that I cannot provide her with resources she needs to enjoy her vision while she can not knowing the speed of progression or what tomorrow will bring I loathe and abhor seeing the heartbreak before my eyes watching the daily battle th

Anger engulfs me in a chaotic storm stealing all reason from my heart and mind like blood soaked in newly fallen snow drowning away the innocence Instead of ice cream, all I taste is iron and rust Tears fall as acid; it burns as I stand in it without cover or care, burning away my sensitivities and I scream as loud as I can, screams no one else can hear fighting the transformation into a monster All I hear: "Don't care, don't care, don't fight and lay all bear" "Unlock this monstrous creature for its cage!" Helpless to have any control over the burdens in my life wanting to crush my emotions into dust where I cannot feel the ever agonizi

Dreams on bookshelves; bookshelves in a secluded library; library in a secret place; dreams wait inside books Dreams never to be read; books orderly presented/unopened waiting for someone to read them, yet, they remain with ancient dust clinging to them like glue, from times long past Deteriorating away with the passing of long, agonizing time Pages turning back to ash; unable to be picked up and opened, anymore, perishing to the elements, never to have their story told and retold The sweet death of obscurity Long nights weeping into the darkness, where the only starlight is the glistening tears, never to be realized or breathed into li

My safe harbor's a ship, adrift in the aimless sea I cannot resist, how the motions, to and fro, set me free the wave rocks me to sleep to a nautical lullaby... Each wave caresses the beast that hungers/plunders inside The ocean spirits sing such a sweet melody: "I will steal you away to a place you have never known inside the majestic fog, where rain, initially, calls home made for warriors to finally have rest, each raindrop, a drum beat, honoring the heart within your chest Burdens are thrown overboard like anchors, without chain or tie no longer need to gasp for air as it fills you while you lie The sweet smell of the waters washes aw

Firefly flying glow-in-the-dark spelunking Caverns' labyrinth investigating unknown: "Can I handle what is next?" Which passage contains... How deep do I go before what awaits comes out seeking to devour me; waiting for that one mistake... Nymphs serenading, attracting chaos to me. Spiritual attacks coercing thoughts with whispers: temptation mixed confusion Poisonous, dark claws scratching slowly down heart/mind to make me falter, with delusions of pleasure; turn my heart to be consumed Fighting to turn back, but I endure and embrace torturous mind games. Darkness surveils defenses to fracture my hopes and dreams Light growing inside p

Feeling insecure can I trust my decisions? No Time-Machine here... Within the abyss all directions look the same internal compass It's getting dark now a dimension opens up Portal of Madness... Inside a mirror lost in all the reflections my Identity Which way is right/wrong? Signposted: No turning back Life or Death choices... Creatures I do not know talking in their languages just human beings Where am I right now? Everythings falling apart God's doing puzzle Laying in my bed too many thoughts to ponder push out evilness Tentacles pulling through portal above my bed to take me apart Must resist, resist... trust myself through everyt

Cold skin meets warm heat absorbing light, deep within "Everyday Shower" Soaks right to the bone different environment blooms Cave of a Dragon Like basking upon gemstones in obsidian ancient and primal Thirsty and hungry unadulterated fire awakening me Steals away the stress distracting complications Satisfaction swells Bursting contentness can finally calm down now enjoy the music Focus on the song carries me off somewhere else abandoned castles Knobs turn to an end reality flushing back Life's remembrance For a brief second exhale to inhale it all cold breaths before me Behind, the door closed music entrapped in the liar until nex

Encased in a box Clawing, Screaming, petrified "Focus on what's good..." Light growing inside planting seeds in my garden drowning out evil Mineralized wood sparkling gemstone colors standing tall and strong In the darkness, calls delusions, tangled theories twisted processes Presenting half-truths mangled behind closed curtains devil's alchemy Thoughts as fireflies exploration commences purge the corruption Garden of gemstones seeds planted into wood's cracks luminous facets Patrolling in groupings revealing machinations always on guard here Devoured corpses shown skeletons of last battle must keep on going Drive out the madness

Time in bubble wrap popping with rage and fury 'waiting that moment Victorious time lullaby in the background when dreams have come true Until then there's pain inexplicable moments ballroom dance awaits Ballerina spins melancholy musicals sentimental box Box full of treasure unfolding pleasurous joy welcoming me home Explosion of time paradox of decisions "Which one to choose now?" All of the moments rolled out like music paper waiting to be played Harp awaits in back for its solo performance stars falling like tears Let's fill the wood box with memories and good times light up the darkness Carried like lantern through the Riding R

Pain of yesterday stalking throughout my lifeline can't hide tracks of light Hiding behind me shadows of insanity thirsting for my heart Wishes fall from clouds soothing my lacerations hungering for life Seed within darkness soaking in the muddy soil waiting to break free My past follows me down this rabbit hole of pain storm of yesterday